Michigan girl [living a] Military Life

I have become obsessed with Pinterest. When I first heard about it I thought it was something stupid like Twitter. Well, then I actually started messing with it and I love it. There's so many nifty crafts that I can actually attempt or look at the picture and do my own way. Like this one for example. Simple block letters bought from Hobby Lobby, decorated with scrapbook paper, and tied together with Halloween ribbon. There are recipes that I will be trying also. Anyway, just thought I'd share my new obsession with this site. Apparently, work and school aren't keeping quite as busy as I thought. So now it's time to get crafty and becoming Susie Home-maker =]

I have such an amazing husband. Especially when I am feeling low. He always knows the exact words to say. I know we haven't been married for very long, but that's how I know we know each other so well. We know exactly what to say to each other to make each other feel better. These past three months have flew by, but have also been really tough. The girl I once was, is back. I didn't know I had changed that much, but apparently I had. Strange how the influence people once had on you changed you until they are not there anymore. I have been feeling quite guilty this past week about a few things, but then I talk to AJB and he reassures me that everything will be fine. It's things like that, that make me fall in love with him even more. I never thought I could ever love or miss another living, breathing soul before until now. This deployment has definitely made my love for AJB grow more and more everyday. I mean I've always loved him, I mean really, I wouldn't...

Went back to good ol' Muskegon, MI two weeks ago. I had a great time. Spent some much needed time with my family. It was definitely something I needed. I came back feeling quite relaxed and not so stressed. I wish we didn't live so far away. I mean I definitely don't miss living in Muskegon, but I do miss the people I left there. Last I heard from AJB he was doing okay. He thought he was coming down with pneumonia. Gosh, I hope not. He wants to be done when we gets back from this tour. No more re-enlistments. He wants to go to school and get his degree. Then possibly go back in as an officer. Whatever he decides I support him.

I’m not one to put personal business on the internet, but this is really bugging me. My mother is 44 years old and is literally a crackhead. She claims that she doesn’t do it, but when your boyfriend does it, your cousin, his wife, and your neighbor all do it and your around them 24/7 your going to do it. Even try it. I can’t believe she would do something like this. It has come to my attention that her boyfriend is wanted in six different counties in Michigan and she is helping him hide. That means trouble for her. She has a 12 year old child to take care of and not to mention a 20 year old disabled daughter. I am so lucky to have escaped the hell that she is putting those two through, but on the other hand feel terrible because I left them there. Anyway, every time I call her to chew her out, she answers and then I am the nicest person ever. I have come to the realization that I just need to not speak with her, and that maybe, hopefully, she will realize that her actio...

I JUST WANT TO SCREAM! The dogs are irritating the hell out of me. Seriously, Lucky won't calm the hell down. I am not one for hitting my dog, but I have spanked her so many times...and still nothing. My husband is having insecurities already and we aren't even two months down into this deployment. I have to reassure him that there is no one I want, only him. My biggest thing is I can't have guy friends but he can meet up with a girl he cheated on his ex with. Regardless, if they were in the same location for ten minutes...it is unnecessary. I am not his ex-fiance ... or whatever she was ... I am me. I am not in this relationship for the money (coz' there isn't any), and I am not in it so I can have the best of both worlds (single life & married life). I am in this for him. AJB forever. I'm slowly losing my strength and I don't want to. I want to be the strongest army wife ever. I want to be able to say next year, "Deployment...a piece of cake....

it's nights like these where I wish I could call up some friends ... pick 'em up ... drive down to the beach && chill. I think a trip home is about due!

So I'm getting homesick.... It all started at work today when I realized I won't be home for Father's Day. There is so much going on this Summer that I will be missing out on. ...Jo-Jo's Open House... ...Em && D's Wedding... ...Family Reunion... ...Hanging out with the bestfriends... && I miss the beach. I don't know the next time I'm going to be home so that's even worse. Some days I feel like just jumping in the truck && driving home. But know that I can't because I have responsibilities here. I know I chose this life && it's great, but would be greater if my family && friends were closer. Don't get me wrong I have friends here Some that I consider family, but it's not the same.