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Hey Jealousy....

You decided to ween your way back into my life again. I thought I was rid of you, but turns out I'm not.
There is nothing I can do to make me stop being jealous of this girl. She's over there with my husband and has been for the past six months. She gets to see him pretty much every day. Now she wants to post pictures on facebook with him. It's like a slap in the face. She knows I can't stand her ass, and given the history of him and her I'm sure she's thinking that the past is going to repeat itself. She can think that all she wants, but I'm not like his ex. I will put up a fight.
That is all I guess.
I suck at this whole thing. I used to be really good at it. I don't know what happened. I guess life. lol.

Anyway, Alex will be home in two weeks and I can't wait. I've missed him so much. I can't believe six months has gone by already. It seems like it has gone by so quickly, but throughout that time I was going insane. I've done a lot of growing throughout this deployment so far. I've realized that I am still very much independent and it's not just a front for other people. I've developed my own group of friends that have nothing to do with the military. I've actually stuck with going to school and am doing really well with it. I've also realized that my husband is my best friend. No one will EVER understand me the way he does.

I never thought I could miss someone as much as I miss him. I didn't think it could be possible. Nowadays a relationship like mine and Alex's is quite rare. We'll be married fotnd of nervous for when he is out…