Michigan girl [living a] Military Life

it's nights like these where I wish I could call up some friends ... pick 'em up ... drive down to the beach && chill. I think a trip home is about due!

So I'm getting homesick.... It all started at work today when I realized I won't be home for Father's Day. There is so much going on this Summer that I will be missing out on. ...Jo-Jo's Open House... ...Em && D's Wedding... ...Family Reunion... ...Hanging out with the bestfriends... && I miss the beach. I don't know the next time I'm going to be home so that's even worse. Some days I feel like just jumping in the truck && driving home. But know that I can't because I have responsibilities here. I know I chose this life && it's great, but would be greater if my family && friends were closer. Don't get me wrong I have friends here Some that I consider family, but it's not the same.

Heard from Alex today =]. I was at work =[. I pretty much sprinted out of the kitchen, so I didn't miss his call. I don't care what the rules are I'm answering my phone when he calls. regardless of where I am or what I am doing. Did I mention I've been a 6 day work streak....ugh! Nearly fell asleep in class tonight, Wait I take that back I did fall asleep. Tell me why I'm wide awake now...=\ Anyway....all morning I was thinking about how Alex hasn't called me yet. Not gonna lie I was getting worried/upset. Then an hour later, he called. He sounds worn out and tired already. I wish I could be there for him, help him in someway. I love you baby! Can't wait to hear your voice and see your gorgeous face. =D

Well today has been the best day so far! I woke up to the best phone call ever!! The first one, of many, from Alex! I ignored it the first time because I was half asleep && didn't recognize it. The second time he called I jumped up because I realized "Shit, that's Alex" I told him I was doing okay && was honest with him about not being able to sleep. It's weird because when he's here I can go in the bedroom and fall right asleep whether he's in the bed with me or not. Subconsciously, It's because I know he is here in this apartment. When I got off the phone with I started crying. I grabbed Lucky && just started bawling. I've done nothing all day today. Made some lunch and that's about it. I definitely should clean this apartment. && probably my homework.

I know I've said this before ... BUT I am going to say it again. I'm an insomniac. I can run 100 miles a minute during the day and be tired the whole time, but as soon as it is time to go to bed...I'm wide awake again. I've been watching Law & Order SVU on netflix since the day Alex left. [which means I still haven't went && got a remote] lol. I wish I never realized how quick this past week went because now...it seems like it's taking forever. I finally went to bed last night [or shall I say yesterday morning] at 230am...&& only because Lucky was practically yelling at me to go to bed. Eric left some over-the-counter sleeping pills here before he left. I think I might try 'em. It can't hurt I mean the worst it's going to do is make me stay awake. Surprise Surprise. But I suppose I will go to bed...or try. I know not a very interesting read.

So all day long I've had this lyric stuck in my head... [by a pretty awesome band might I add] " When all is said && done I'll still be here waiting" it's the perfect lyric for my life right now. && for those of you that know me best I live my life based on quotes && lyrics. It fits because no matter what happens throughout this deployment. Whether we fight more than ever, or fall in love all over again. I'm still going to be right here. I woke up today feeling extremely tired [like always it seems]. Got ready for work && as I was brushing my teeth I realized. Holy cow, it's already Friday. It seems like yesterday I was telling Alex good-bye. If this next year goes as fast as this last week did, I won't complain. I caught Lexi escaping from her kennel today. That is one smart dog [or Lucky is just dumb]. Went to Wal-greens after work to get cable ties && tied 'em around the whole kennel. If that doesn't...

The past few days have been rough for me. Alex left on Monday, everything I read about deployments were true. The anticipation was worse than the actual deployment. Don't get me wrong this is hard as hell. I hadn't heard from him since Tuesday when they were in Maine. I got on facebook today && heard that two other wives had heard from their husbands && I'm not gonna lie I was upset that I hadn't heard from Alex yet. I had class tonight and in the middle of class my phone starts going off (oops...) I look at it and it says Alex J<3 . =] I got excited and opened the text message with shaky hands. It was such a relief to read the words I love you baby . Seeing these words have never made me happier. [Don't get me wrong I love when Alex texts me that] But it's a completely different feeling when my husband is a whole day && half ahead of me. Needless to say, I thought for sure I wasn't going to be the typical "deployed" army...